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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
went back to stnicks yest. yuhui and i walked arnd, talked, ate orange bowl.. we were so bored cos there's lyk nth to do?! (yh ah, there's reali no one whom i dont wish to see! in fact, its the opposite. okay whatever.) hmm oh talked to pan for awhile! (yala we cowards cannot ah! you also lor!) anw yin wei yz fianlly joined us at 4plus which was 2hrs since we reached! wanted to take photos so asked choo to help us.. he damn funny la! oh well, then yz left and christina came! chatted with msquek and left. it was qte a short day, hope to meet up soon! (:
wasnt feeling well last night, fever and headache agn. wth la, why am i so proned to all these these days! had TWO panadols before i went to sleep! (jus in case you dunno, i alws avoid pills cos i cant swallow! so yeah, felt terrible /:)
was freakin cold the past few days. The wind used to make me smile, it still does, just that now, duo le yi fen emptiness and loneliness.
It hurts like you never knew. i really dont know why ):
I dont want us to be a wound that never had a chance to heal.
darkness. 6:03 pm ;
Saturday, January 27, 2007
darkness. 6:29 pm ;
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
nothing happy happened. in fact, im still rather upset and sick AGN! /: but oh well, not surprising that i break my hiatus since i alws do so plus im super bored now.
How i wish i could go back to last year, 2006. Excluding the exams and stress, i think it had been a rather nice year. Laughing, gossiping, playing with friends; spending happy and sad moments with, everyone were of so much fun. But now, things are different. almost all of my friends are busy in their schools and we had not met up for qte long ):
and, ive not been talking to certain people, which is rather upsetting. Many things are so different now that i keep wondering, am i stuck in a nightmare or smth. Alot of times i feel so lonely and helpless, but there's nothing i can do besides crying. do you call that weak. hahaha, i dont know, maybe.
i dont know myself anymore. really.
bestie; im sorry if it was damn boring out with me today ): know i was qte irritating. oh and hope you got what i mean in the smses yeah? love. :D
dearest; i dont know what to say, but i'll choose to stay on and im still gna cry if you leave for good in the end. and, im still waiting for ur reply and prayin hard. missing you, <3#47>
green; so, does our sentence work? i really hope that things will turn out fine for you. if not, we must try to be happyhappy? (:
gp; we havent really been talkin, so i hope you're alright! say, HAHA! (: anw im still sad that my cactus died ):
darkness. 11:23 pm ;
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Hiatus. (until there's something happy enough for me to blog)
\do you know, i woke up finding my handphone in my hands still
darkness. 4:02 pm ;
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
okay i dunno what to blog but im so bored la! i cant stand staying at home these days /: kinda regretted not applying to go to any jc cos my frens make orientation (not the lessons duh) sounds like alot of fun! haiz plus alrd feeling so lousy, still keep quarreling with my mum and sis like everyday!? wahlau eh, can you all try to be more reasonable and understanding?! ); cant wait to get out of the hse on friday i think.. goin to poly open houses with the girls? haha. hmm anyway think im feeling better alrd (i mean my HEALTH not _ ), jus that my lao mao bing (reminds me of your vitamins) keep acting up! whatever, gosh cant believe i jus typed out a para of nonsense! -shakes head-
I'm still waiting for your reply <3
darkness. 11:16 pm ;
Friday, January 12, 2007
actually ive wanted you to spell things out clear, so as to settle things fast? & so tdy agn, you've told me not to bother abt you/ you're not worth it/ you dont want this.. then agn, you said tellin me these doesnt mean d_j_ either.. Contradicting. Confusing. Asked you a qns jus now but you haven reply yet.. but nevermind, i said i will wait.. so reali hope you'd think carefully. Anw i jus wna let you know, no matter what the outcome is, i want you to be happy aft that (despite possibility of me bein hurt agn), really. Cliche? maybe, but i mean it.<3> or perhaps, i dont know.
(Well sometimes i think, maybe right from the start, u could've said "i hate you" and it might have spared us the pain. but then agn, im glad u didnt cos i doubt im strong enough to take that.)
But only love can stay,
Try again or walk away.
GAHH.. im sick! cough and slight fever. feel so drained ): oh well, jus wna say thankyou to my dear friends for your concern (:
darkness. 10:14 pm ;
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
saw Gong shi jia on the tv (some repeated show) and she's singing "...xiang zhe ni de wen rou, xiang zhe ni de mu yang, wo fang bu xia.." HAHAHA guess no one knows what im actually talking abt, but nvm, just treat that im being my random self then. oh anyway i alws put on weight durin the hols but this time i act lost abt 2kg! happy or what, i dont know.
i dont know what you're trying to tell me by not replying my msges or answering my calls, or rather i dont dare to think abt it. seriously like the tag, wo gao bu dong wo men dao di zen me le cheng shi de bei hou shi fo zhu zhe shang tong wo xiang bu tong wo men de ai zen me le yu xia guo yi hou shi fo neng rang shen me fu huo~ how i wish you know just how much im missing you.
JOANNA; im reali sorry if my reply hurt you just now. truthfully i was kinda pissed off too but, i dont know why exactly either. So im sorry for that. im just, not feeling like myself these days. Hope you can understand, bestie (:
darkness. 5:00 pm ;
Monday, January 08, 2007
i'm bored at home! spent 4hours doing housework today! cleaned and washed my bedroom's windows, walls and floor. (I almost fell down the ladder btw!)
You were there? Why wont you answer my calls? You said you dont want this too, right? I've promised myself not to give up on us, so i wont. & you too okay? <3
darkness. 9:52 pm ;
Saturday, January 06, 2007
went back stnicks with jo n becca for prep on thurs, campfire yest and cca fair today! well, everything went on well i supposed. Campfire was a success! (eh gp i really stood there and watched the fireball fly down leh haha) Drills comm was wonderful today (: the music was very loud, so somehow felt damn shuang! so i guess the whole sec1 orientation was good (:
we went j8 after that jus now. watched charlotte's web. but think i was just staring at the screen instead of reali concentrating. walked around and left. (besties: So sorry that my heart n mind was somewhere else jus now. thanks for bearing with my /: look the whole day.) i sat alone at the far end(beyond the construction work) of the quite empty bishan mrt stn for one whole hour, watching the trains come n go. dont know why i did that too, so dont ask me. i just stared into space and at my handphone.
i really dont know whats going on anymore. why did things turn out like this. it hurts alot reading those msges you sent these few days. i can understand how you felt cos i feel exactly the same! but somehow we're still avoiding each other, arent we? ); i miss you. Oh mighty courage, come find us pls!!! im praying hard.
anyway gp, perhaps you're right, i'm really a coward.
darkness. 12:53 am ;
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
went back to stnicks yest. yuhui and i walked arnd, talked, ate orange bowl.. we were so bored cos there's lyk nth to do?! (yh ah, there's reali no one whom i dont wish to see! in fact, its the opposite. okay whatever.) hmm oh talked to pan for awhile! (yala we cowards cannot ah! you also lor!) anw yin wei yz fianlly joined us at 4plus which was 2hrs since we reached! wanted to take photos so asked choo to help us.. he damn funny la! oh well, then yz left and christina came! chatted with msquek and left. it was qte a short day, hope to meet up soon! (:
wasnt feeling well last night, fever and headache agn. wth la, why am i so proned to all these these days! had TWO panadols before i went to sleep! (jus in case you dunno, i alws avoid pills cos i cant swallow! so yeah, felt terrible /:)
was freakin cold the past few days. The wind used to make me smile, it still does, just that now, duo le yi fen emptiness and loneliness.
It hurts like you never knew. i really dont know why ):
I dont want us to be a wound that never had a chance to heal.
darkness. 6:03 pm ;
Saturday, January 27, 2007
& im still waiting, though i guess it just wont be the same anymore. (Same wallpaper, different feelings) miss you.
darkness. 6:29 pm ;
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
nothing happy happened. in fact, im still rather upset and sick AGN! /: but oh well, not surprising that i break my hiatus since i alws do so plus im super bored now.
How i wish i could go back to last year, 2006. Excluding the exams and stress, i think it had been a rather nice year. Laughing, gossiping, playing with friends; spending happy and sad moments with, everyone were of so much fun. But now, things are different. almost all of my friends are busy in their schools and we had not met up for qte long ):
and, ive not been talking to certain people, which is rather upsetting. Many things are so different now that i keep wondering, am i stuck in a nightmare or smth. Alot of times i feel so lonely and helpless, but there's nothing i can do besides crying. do you call that weak. hahaha, i dont know, maybe.
i dont know myself anymore. really.
bestie; im sorry if it was damn boring out with me today ): know i was qte irritating. oh and hope you got what i mean in the smses yeah? love. :D
dearest; i dont know what to say, but i'll choose to stay on and im still gna cry if you leave for good in the end. and, im still waiting for ur reply and prayin hard. missing you, <3#47>
green; so, does our sentence work? i really hope that things will turn out fine for you. if not, we must try to be happyhappy? (:
gp; we havent really been talkin, so i hope you're alright! say, HAHA! (: anw im still sad that my cactus died ):
darkness. 11:23 pm ;
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Hiatus. (until there's something happy enough for me to blog)
\do you know, i woke up finding my handphone in my hands still
darkness. 4:02 pm ;
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
okay i dunno what to blog but im so bored la! i cant stand staying at home these days /: kinda regretted not applying to go to any jc cos my frens make orientation (not the lessons duh) sounds like alot of fun! haiz plus alrd feeling so lousy, still keep quarreling with my mum and sis like everyday!? wahlau eh, can you all try to be more reasonable and understanding?! ); cant wait to get out of the hse on friday i think.. goin to poly open houses with the girls? haha. hmm anyway think im feeling better alrd (i mean my HEALTH not _ ), jus that my lao mao bing (reminds me of your vitamins) keep acting up! whatever, gosh cant believe i jus typed out a para of nonsense! -shakes head-
I'm still waiting for your reply <3
darkness. 11:16 pm ;
Friday, January 12, 2007
actually ive wanted you to spell things out clear, so as to settle things fast? & so tdy agn, you've told me not to bother abt you/ you're not worth it/ you dont want this.. then agn, you said tellin me these doesnt mean d_j_ either.. Contradicting. Confusing. Asked you a qns jus now but you haven reply yet.. but nevermind, i said i will wait.. so reali hope you'd think carefully. Anw i jus wna let you know, no matter what the outcome is, i want you to be happy aft that (despite possibility of me bein hurt agn), really. Cliche? maybe, but i mean it.<3> or perhaps, i dont know.
(Well sometimes i think, maybe right from the start, u could've said "i hate you" and it might have spared us the pain. but then agn, im glad u didnt cos i doubt im strong enough to take that.)
But only love can stay,
Try again or walk away.
GAHH.. im sick! cough and slight fever. feel so drained ): oh well, jus wna say thankyou to my dear friends for your concern (:
darkness. 10:14 pm ;
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
saw Gong shi jia on the tv (some repeated show) and she's singing "...xiang zhe ni de wen rou, xiang zhe ni de mu yang, wo fang bu xia.." HAHAHA guess no one knows what im actually talking abt, but nvm, just treat that im being my random self then. oh anyway i alws put on weight durin the hols but this time i act lost abt 2kg! happy or what, i dont know.
i dont know what you're trying to tell me by not replying my msges or answering my calls, or rather i dont dare to think abt it. seriously like the tag, wo gao bu dong wo men dao di zen me le cheng shi de bei hou shi fo zhu zhe shang tong wo xiang bu tong wo men de ai zen me le yu xia guo yi hou shi fo neng rang shen me fu huo~ how i wish you know just how much im missing you.
JOANNA; im reali sorry if my reply hurt you just now. truthfully i was kinda pissed off too but, i dont know why exactly either. So im sorry for that. im just, not feeling like myself these days. Hope you can understand, bestie (:
darkness. 5:00 pm ;
Monday, January 08, 2007
i'm bored at home! spent 4hours doing housework today! cleaned and washed my bedroom's windows, walls and floor. (I almost fell down the ladder btw!)
You were there? Why wont you answer my calls? You said you dont want this too, right? I've promised myself not to give up on us, so i wont. & you too okay? <3
darkness. 9:52 pm ;
Saturday, January 06, 2007
went back stnicks with jo n becca for prep on thurs, campfire yest and cca fair today! well, everything went on well i supposed. Campfire was a success! (eh gp i really stood there and watched the fireball fly down leh haha) Drills comm was wonderful today (: the music was very loud, so somehow felt damn shuang! so i guess the whole sec1 orientation was good (:
we went j8 after that jus now. watched charlotte's web. but think i was just staring at the screen instead of reali concentrating. walked around and left. (besties: So sorry that my heart n mind was somewhere else jus now. thanks for bearing with my /: look the whole day.) i sat alone at the far end(beyond the construction work) of the quite empty bishan mrt stn for one whole hour, watching the trains come n go. dont know why i did that too, so dont ask me. i just stared into space and at my handphone.
i really dont know whats going on anymore. why did things turn out like this. it hurts alot reading those msges you sent these few days. i can understand how you felt cos i feel exactly the same! but somehow we're still avoiding each other, arent we? ); i miss you. Oh mighty courage, come find us pls!!! im praying hard.
anyway gp, perhaps you're right, i'm really a coward.
darkness. 12:53 am ;